You can hide memories, but you can’t erase the history that produced them. If nothing else, you need to remember that. You can’t erase history, or change it. It would be like destroying yourself.

Excerpt from Haruki Murakami’s new release, “Colorless Tsukuru Tazaki and His Years of Pilgrimage”

I’ve only read a couple chapters in so far, but it’s kind of uncanny how the mood of the book actually matches my mood in life right now :o

I had to take over a call for my buddy at work because he had a shit ton of overtime for the week, and for whatever reason, (maybe they should cut out the Porsche contest for sales so they can actually pay their workforce, but I’m not management) my company currently has as STRICT no OT policy. So, I usually don’t like taking calls over from people, because I didn’t work from the start, and if it’s fucked up and in the midst of troubleshooting, I might as well start from scratch, but since it was Matt, I actually didn’t mind taking it over. What really shocked me was that even though he clocked out, he came by my desk and sat behind me to see what I was doing in terms of troubleshooting and configuring. The thing that blew my mind was since it was a Friday, and Friday’s are usually pretty light, was that another coworker just kind of wandered over and was like, “what’s up guys? Oh, getting a little off the clock training? Yeah, Jeff kind of works in quick and mysterious ways.” Now, when I started at this company, I had what little self taught knowledge I had with fucking around with my residential grade router, and the learning curve was pretty steep, but I got into the swing of things. Throughout my career at this place, I’ve always kind of steadily learned new things and processes, but for whatever reason I thought this was the norm. Now that I’ve been at it for 3 years, I’ve still been learning new things in regards to my field of work, both at work, and off the clock. I’m fairly certain the company has actually started noticing, even though the higher ups at corporate mostly look at metrics like the holy grail of judging employees, my superiors’ words do carry some weight at the company. I’ve kind of got in good with the supporting engineering group, field ops, and design engineering, which kind of is a fountain of knowledge, as well as useful calling in favors sometimes. I guess where I’m really going with this post is: it feels good to know that you aren’t just a employee that just floats through unrecognized. It’s a good feeling when majority of your company sees your name in a good light, and sees you as someone dependable to get shit done. It also feels good to have people look up to you. As long as I can remember, I’ve always looked up to people like my brother, my parents, music artists, favorite players, etc, but I never really knew what it feels like when people say “I want to be at your level one of these days.”